Trepidation: Word of the Week #7

The Reading Residence

“Trepidation”

 

 

 

Yup.  I’ve only gone and done it.  I’ve got myself a job.

A part time, flexi-hours job which also involves a trip into London once a week (ish).

I know, I know, I know.  I can’t believe it either!

Perfect.

Just what I wanted.

My #WordOfTheWeek was going to be ‘New Job’ but…

…as DadTired always says, there’s always a ‘but’

This was a goal I set myself some months ago, but now that I have it I have thousands of questions & queries rampaging through my brain leading me to feel trepidatious about the whole thing.

What if I’ve lost the knack?

What if they don’t like me?

What if my brain no longer works when I have to talk about things other than toddlers/schools/PTA events?

What is Little Mister’s reaction going to be when I tell him mummy has to go to work?

What will happen with Mademoiselle and her beloved after-school gym class?

What if the childcare arrangements don’t work?

What about all of the friends I’ve got to know over mid morning coffee – will we still get our time together?

What’s in my working wardrobe which isn’t circa 1999 and still fits me?!

What if it doesn’t work out at all – what if I can’t juggle everything and I have to choose between being a working mum or a StayAtHomeMum?

What then?  Really, what then?

I’m about to embark on a whole new project, just as I did two years ago when we moved to Oxfordshire.  Then, I had no intention of becoming a SAHM, it was something I sorta slipped in to. I’m still learning-on-the-job and if someone were to appraise me for it I’m sure the report would say ‘could do better’.

My natural character is to take things in my stride, nothing phased me.

But this feels different.

Somehow this seems more impacting.

This isn’t just about me, it’s about Mademoiselle, Little Mister and DadTired.  It’s about disrupting our current status quo (which I still have a love-hate relationship with) and finding a new one.  And for me, if this doesn’t work I’m not sure what will, or where I go from here.

It’s a part time job.

It’s partly working from home with the odd day trip into London.

It involves me talking about food, something I love (and no doubt sampling some, too).

It’s what I want (but it’s not just about me any more).

What could possibly go wrong?  See above* and some

It’s a new venture and just thinking about it is making my heart pound faster and my to-do-list grow even longer  *deep breath*

Trepidation just about sums it up!

Wish me luck  x

I’m linking this post up with Jocelyn at The Reading Residence and her #Word of the Week series.

Thanks for the lovely linky x

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14 comments

  • Kim Carberry

    Congratulations on the new job! Good luck! I hope it all works out x

  • Anne

    Congratulations!! I’m sure everything will fall into place, and there isn’t anyone on this earth who wouldn’t feel the same as you do now in the same situation. Promise to do an update on your blog in six months…I bet everything will be just fine 🙂

    • MummyShire

      thanks for your reassurance, and I no doubt i will be ranting/questioning/updating my status in 6 months. thank you x

  • The Reading Residence

    I wish you loads of luck, though I’m certain you won’t need it. I think all of these thoughts are totally natural, as it’s a change, but it sounds like it’s one you’re yearning for, and I’m sure you’ll all adjust, just as you did two years ago. Enjoy! Thanks for sharing with #WotW

    • MummyShire

      Thnx for hosting linky too! I hope this is the right thing and I not just a question of looking at the grass being greener elsewhere! Thnx for lovely comments x

  • Tracey

    Sounds like the perfect balance and something you will enjoy doing, congratulations!

  • Nicola

    Congratulations – it’s a huge change but one you wanted ! Remember all the things that made you keep looking for this great opportunity and amazing balance, happy parents happy children!!!! Still scary though……good luck xx

  • Stephanie

    Congrats – am sure it will all work out just fine. Remember they chose you and will have seen something they wanted in you. You chose them too, how can it go wrong!

  • Rosie @Eco-Gites of Lenault

    Yay – and you’ll be just fine. You will 🙂

  • Karen Bell

    Congratulations on getting the job. It is very scary going back to work with a family. Good luck!

  • Merlinda Little (@pixiedusk)

    Started some volunteer jobs too this week and I feel awesome even tho what i am doing is not that important in that company. i just feel better. self woth is okay now.

    congratulations to your new job. i envy you and i know how it feels. Its so scary. But its the scary feel that i want to feel. just go and kick some ass =) #wotw

  • Emma

    The word scares me! You’ve thought about it and told the world, now for a new word ‘confidence’! You have landed on your feet now run with it – your family and friends believe in you, so why dont YOU!! Congrats again on your new job xxx

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