For the last month I haven’t had time for anything other than the bare essentials. It’s been like treading water but what I really wanted to was swim to the other side. That!
Well, something had to give and it was my blog.
It couldn’t be my new job, or I would no long have a new job!!
It couldn’t be the children. When I made the decision to go back to work, I tried to put safeguards in place for the children to keep their day-to-day lives pretty much the same. This also means that when I get home I am totally theirs, until they go to bed. No phone or social media until they’re in bed. Sometimes I don’t start chores or home admin until 9pm. Then blog stuff follows after.
It was exhausting and pushed my bedtime into the early hours of the morning.
It wasn’t fun and certainly not lovable!
So my blog had to give.
My blog needs attention & plenty of love to flourish the way I want it to – a bit like a third child! And until recently I didn’t have enough time or in particular love to go around.
But, as I hope I’ve reached the peak of chaos, I believe things can only plateau. If it stays the same, then in real terms it is getting better. The more I live with the chaos of juggling work & home the easier it is to cope with!
So I’m finding I have a bit more time & love to give back to my blog.
‘Having’ to write for the blog, or taking photos when your heart’s not in it isn’t fun but a chore.
But I’ve fallen back in love *again* not just with the writing but with reading, too. Getting involved in other people’s stories is emotional – whether you’re laughing or crying with them. For a while I didn’t have any room for any more emotion!
But this week space in my mind, body & soul for my blog is pushing its way thru.
I’m falling back in love with my blog, without giving a flying fig about the figures.
That isn’t why I blog.
I’ve rekinlded the love for my blog for what it is. I now know I will always blog. I could never abandon a third child, but sometimes it may have to be a little more self-sufficient to survive!
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I'm Tracey, nice to meet you. Mummyshire was 'born' three years ago after we moved from London to the Oxford countryside. Here I chart our journey adjusting to our new lives, the challenges of being in the countryside & surviving parenthood.