My word of the week should be ready, or practical or busy, as that’s what I’ve been. Frantically trying to put plans in place for when I return to an office based job next week. But actually the overwhelming sense I’ve felt all week is emotional.
I didn’t bank on the emotional aspect of my decision hitting me like this.
This week was spent sorting out childcare, various contracts, club memberships & loads of paperwork. I’ve updated diaries and downloaded a calendar app for me & Dadtired so we’re activity-synced *let’s see how long this lasts!*
Mid week I had a panic over my work wardrobe. Being a SAHM my clothes have to have two main criteria – are they comfy & if they get dirty can then put thrown into a 40-degree wash without question?!
Prior to having my Little Shires I worked in London PR companies whose dress code is, at best, described as “casual.” My working wardrobe consisted of various shades of skinny jeans, layered tops, chunky knits & colourful shoes! Five years later & fashions have changed, my body has changed *age & kids!* & where I’m going isn’t really a denim kinda place. So I’ve been busy buying new clothes this week, too.
But throughout the week it’s been emotional.
No one likes change but I hope I’ve put enough securities in place so that the change has minimal impact. Of course there will be some impact – I won’t be at the school gate at the end of the day, for a start. But I will be there every morning taking the Little Shires to school and home in time to sit around the table with them for dinner.
I’m a practical, logical person but there are some things you just can’t take the emotional factor out of. After all, I’ve been at home for 5 years, running the house, the children, their social lives and a small freelance business…oh, and a blog.
I think I’ve done an OK job so far & I’ve been here for the children every day. This is going to be the same freelance work just a different location, & I will still be here for the children. And that’s my number one priority. Always.
The practical me says this is doable, with the right preparation in place. I hope I’ve got this right. It’s just change that is making me emotional, but change is good. Without change we can’t move forward.
Many words describe my week, but overwhelmingly it’s been emotional.
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I'm Tracey, nice to meet you. Mummyshire was 'born' three years ago after we moved from London to the Oxford countryside. Here I chart our journey adjusting to our new lives, the challenges of being in the countryside & surviving parenthood.